I have recently been offered a promotion at my retail job. It is a leadership position – something I’ve never done before.
I’ve always been the peon, and quite contentedly so too. I have loved not having the pressure, stress, and take-home worries about leadership. I’ve enjoyed going in, doing my job, and walking out with little to no stress.
Now I find myself in a leadership position (for which I didn’t ask, but accepted because I thought it would look good on my resume). It is a whole new ball of wax.
I was a cashier. As a cashier, I could ignore most of my co-workers. I never, ever dealt with anyone on “the floor” (people who weren’t regular cashiers). I only talked to the other cashiers if I wanted to. As someone who is socially inept, this was a great career choice for me.
Now, in this leadership position, I have to deal with people constantly.
This is much harder for me than it sounds.
A while back, I was joking with a co-worker. In a completely light-hearted moment, I called her a name, all in jest. Most people would have taken it as it was given. Unfortunately, in her country, that is one of the worst names you can call someone. When I discovered my faux pas, I immediately apologized and tried to let her know I meant no harm by it. I don’t think she has ever fully forgiven me.
And now I’m her supervisor. Before, I just gave her her space, not wanting to step on her toes any more than I already had (plus it’s just easier to avoid a problem than try to solve it, right?). Now, I have to deal with her multiple times every hour. Can you say uncomfortable?
I’m not quite sure how to handle all of this. It’s all so new and there’s not a handbook for it. I think the human interaction part of it will be the most difficult part of it for me. I think my Higher Power has given me this position so I can learn this skill I’ve been woefully lacking.
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