Too Much Excitement!!!!
Okay. I just need to face facts. There’s no way I’m going to be able to sleep tonight. I should just start some movie marathon and not fight it.
First off, I’m literally hours away from being ready to publish. Super duper huge yikes! I had previously set a goal for myself for the end of the summer. It seemed realistic, but still a challenge. I guess not. I finished the second to last step tonight. Tomorrow, I’m going to do the last step. I can’t imagine it’ll take me any more than a couple of hours. A key stroke here, deleting a line there and voila, I’m ready to submit.
I’ve never been this close to submitting before. I’m terrified-excited. I’m nervous-giddy. I’m curious-anxious.
And then there’s Wendell (the latest guy with whom I’m chatting). He seems pretty cool. He first e-mailed me this morning, and it looks like we have a date for tomorrow (yes, Mother, it’s going to be in a public place and I’m going to be safe!) He’s a little short and he’s a Capricorn (the only two negatives I’ve seen so far, which aren’t that major). He seems intelligent, funny, interesting, and kind. He’s a massage therapist (yes, please!) He said since he sees bodies all day long, he’s more attracted to a mind than a body (eases my fat-girl worries, somewhat). He’s black, so he would definitely stand out at the family gatherings. Not that I’m leaping to that yet. I’m just taking a walk in the park with the guy. We’ll see how tomorrow goes.
Plus, I want to blog about my vacation, but I simply can’t do so without my pictures (what good is a vacation blog without pictures?!) I can’t find my camera to upload my pics. Argh!
Of course, there’s the background noise which tells me I should tidy my living room, wash my dishes, and actually do a load or two of laundry. Not to mention I need to hang up my new shower curtain, I should wash my bedding, and I probably should go buy some new produce, since it’s been a week and I’m avoiding the old stuff at this point. There’s also the tiny bit of me that worries that I won’t be kept at my job at the end of my temporary period. And the legal thing with my ex. And my thin hair and bad skin. And I’m wondering if I need to get a new Writer’s Bible since the one I have is from last year. And I need to create a new budget now that I’m actually making enough money to pay my bills. And there’s this other guy I’ve been putting off and putting off – what do I say to him? He really wants a date with me. And that other guy, too.
I’ve got all this crap buzzing around inside of me like I just had a quadruple shot of espresso.
Any ideas on how to calm down?